Kerek ~ Perasan Bagus... (T_T)

I need to put this short.. just for a short reflection...

Pada suatu hari...eh.. no no.. this gonna be panjang if I start from this sentence..

Hari tu (dah lama dah), kami ada buat persembahan sketsa.. and saya tidak berlakon..

saya just jadi pencerita..

I've read what we've (the group) planned to be read in front..

in order for audience to understand..

and the script of pencerita is a good point

(have a valueable moral values that I think need emphasizing for other people to get that)

so I decided to rise my voice a bit, say the sentences clearer and put a little intonation-emotion to it...ok.. not ok... maybe

chit chong pet pot toin toin...

dan selesailah sketsa tersebut...

tiba masa makan seorang budak (orang tua dah ni) lalu di tepi saya dan saya dengar dia cakap

"Kerek la perempuan ni" as dia lalu tu la..

Well, I just ignore that, as there were few perempuan at the surrounding...

but the word did get into my mind.. really get into my mind..

I don't really mind when people say I am kerek..

berlagak... bajet bagus.. perasan..

anything you wanna say about me.. you can say it.. its your mouth, not mine..

(I can't shut it up for you...)

But what the least thing that I can do is.. reflection...

Am I really 'that'???

Keep asking this for nearly few months after that..

but not because of that case only la..

many things too..

When people started complaining my ideas.. my opinion..

and even my pakaian???

I didn't force anyone to hear me.. you can shut your ears if you don't wanna hear it or put aside your mind so you don't get it..

You are not forced to wear like me, did I even force you?

When I give opinion, its not that I am good than anyone or what...

I wanna share things, that it.

I think its your thinking, that thinks that I'm thinking that I'm thinking like that... (ork?)

What actually happening to everyone?

Do you know me that much that you can said that I am a kerek?

Do you know that what I wanna do is actually sharing a good thing, that I think its good..

(But if you think I did it overly.. the cara is not suitable, then.. I'll do it differently next time)

Maybe caranya tak sesuai then... okay..

But you need to reasonly make me understand.. say it to me.. make me understand..

Its not gonna do any harm to you (insyaAllah).. as I am a reflective person.. hope so =)

Hmm..

and the reflection is... (hehe baru sampai part refleksi rupanya...)

maybe I done things differently than other..

When other people tend to keep silence, I tend to speak it out...

When others think it a personal matter, I think its everybodys' matter....

Well, speak it out do make people think right..

Owh..that actually why its happened...

Now I get it.. I did make others think about it.. They do think about it..

Thats why they cames to the conclusion of putting me into the classification of 'kerek'...

It's life.. now I understand...

Thank you to all people that think I am kerek..and the one that have the nerve to say it aloud undirectly to me... You are all appreciated..

I am learning..

maybe this sentences cannot be understandable..

Till then, see ya (^_^)v

P/s: Now its loooonger that expected..sorry.. can't help that..

Terima Kasih - Thank You- Syukran Jazilan- Pounsikou everyone for reading this post. If you find this post somehow inappropriate in any term "you-like-to-define", kindly specify your suggestions or comments in comments box below.
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